in between the lines...

Someone said... "I think writing does come out of a deep well of loneliness and a desire to fill some kind of gap. No one in his right mind would sit down to write a book if he were a well-adjusted, happy man."

my take on it...
the basic purpose of writing has always been to keep a record.. of anything and everything possible... that is how history has been recorded and maintained..
but thats not the only purpose it serves... many people maintain a dairy in which they write whatever is in their head and heart at that instant of time, the happenings or the lack of them in their lives... the reason to keep a diary could be their lonliness as a result of which they dont share their thoughts with anyone else except the dairy, which for them turns into an individual who fills all the gaps...

some people are not regular writers, but write at times, just to get a few things out of their system... things which cant really be blurted out... and it does help most of the times... to just get things out and let them go forever...

but its not just sad or lonely people who write... happy n satisfied people can also do so... most of the times, it comes out in the form of an autobiography... it might be just to see their life summarised or might want others to read and benefit from it if possible...

during the conversation i said...
"n books also have stuff written in b/w the lines..."
how the text is interpreted varies from person to person... the same words might hold different meanings for different individuals... what one might see as straight, simple and obvious, another might infer something else from it by trying to read in between the lines...
The beauty is... the author might have written the same backed by a completely different line of thought...!
the actual author writes a book... but each time it is read, every reader reforms it and reproduces a personal copy of it based on his own perceptions... and so every reader owns the same book in a distinctive way and discrete capacity...

hence, reading in between the lines and evaluating it is indicative of a person..
one cant really miss reading what the author was trying to say in between the lines...

why not

why do we have have to "choose" a profession for our entire life...? why cant we change it as n when desired(not as frequently as my mood swings, but still !)... there is no law, written or not, which says that we must stick to it all throughout... extra input might be required each time a change is made, but then that cant really be the reason not to do something engrossing...

there are so many things in this world that are just so flabbergasting, things are so dynamic all around, with so much still unexplored... there is so much that can be done... and spending our very short lives, doing just one thing day in n day out doesnt really sound fair... unless the pursuit of life is nothing but a pure passion..
but what if even i havent realised my passion as yet..? how do i find out..?
i guess the easiest way is to just try things out...! one by one, till i find the one i wanna to continue with till the end...
why cant all the things talked about in the previous post be done...? some of them can be done even simultaneously.. and lots more..!!

after all we aren't immortal yet.. some time in future it might be a reality, ofcourse if this planet isn't blown up by then n the human race survives all the endless wars, which ofcourse are nothin but mere power games, the logic of which is still arcane...

what if...

a few thoughts that kept diverting my attention from my studies last night, though i had an exam this morning... the reasons for thediversion are still kinda unknown...

what if after completing this semster of mine(coz i've already spent 6 months on it so might as well complete it.. but dont wanna extend this logic any further..), i drop out of college...
i'll do something which was the 1st profession i ever thought of taking up in life when i was very young... i'll become an Air Hostess...
vaise bhi, the aviation industry is on an upswing these days, so getting a job in a while shouldn't be much of a hassle... i'll just fly all around, check out new places, cultures, people n stuff...
as an after thought, i think i can also finish my graduation n then join some airline... not just as an air hostess, but also as an on-board technician or something...!

if that doesnt work out, i can maybe become a News Reader... there are ample number of news channels these days.. though most of them are below any possible decent standards...!
but that wont keep me busy all the time... cant be a journalist as my observing power isn't all that strong...
i could also try something like being a book critic or something.. but even that wont keep me occupied... i can read alot of stuff, but really dont know if i'll be able to make a real living out of just reading stuff...
i know if i have idea or thought, i can write well... it takes a little time, but i can... n i can have kinda weird n out of the way thought, so i can also give philosophy a shot... but dont think many would wanna read what i think or have to say... so even that isn't too viable an option.... but definitely something i'll try sooner or later...

i can turn to Psychology in a big way... thats something which has always held my interest... once, i think when i was in class 7, in my art class, i was supposed to draw my dream.. and i remember portraying myself as a psychologist who recently achieved fame by making some discovery related to happiness...!
the main reason for takin it up will be.. i wanna completely discover my own self... n then how other react to things n why do they do so n related stuff... human mind is one of the biggest mysteries n i want to explore one of its aspects...
i do try to, but as of now can only look at things in a certain way... wanna look at things in all possible perspectives...

Power

POWER
these 5 alphabets makes a word which makes the world go round...!
anywhere & everywhere u can see people running after just one & only one thing...
starting from a new born infant, who seems to have a control over his loving parents by default...
a teenager who struggles to have the power to control his own life & decisions...
an employee, a boss, a politician, a man, a woman, someone young or old...
in short.. just about EVERYONE...!

Why...? what is power...?
does it mean absolute control...? the ability to do whatever u want, whenever u want, to whom so ever u want...?
why is it human nature to seek power in whatever form or degree possible...? to attain it by whatever possible means...?
the most significant point is... on one wants the power to maintain a control over themselves, but on everyone else around them n also expect others to accept it... the power to control not one's own, but others lives...

what is it that attracts everyone to it...? can it have as simple an explanation as this..
the power & control over things boosts the omnipresent human EGO (in the conventional sense)...?
or is there more to it than meets the eye...

With power, comes responsibility...
but do most people with power realise it...? if they do realsie it, do they accept it...? & if tehy do accept it, do they practise it...?

I saw 2 movies today... Spy Game (Robert Redford n Brad Pitt) ; Yuva
In first, the CIA is tryin to find a reason to end the life of a man of their own, so that the power game between US n China can continue with the winner ofcourse being US...
In second, a politicain will go to any possible extent to maintain his position n to retain his power... he's ready to bribe, kill or whatever it takes...

another characteristic of Power.... it is addictive... if someone once has it, they just cant let go of it...! n if they are made to, the result is a frustrated being...

Life is nothing but a game of power...

just saw DCH all over again... its such an amazing movie...!! i can just about never get bored of it...
everything from characterisation to cinematography to direction to acting to editing... n ofcourse the music... its all just so perfect... just like Aamir...
the movie is so full of life... it covers alot of aspects... friendship, fun, love, happiness, sadness, fight, makeup...
all the 3 freinds are so different but they gel so well with each other...
i like Sid's passion... his perception of love(coz its similar to mine) ... bas ho jaata hai..! n it cant be done under conditions of the person u love responding to u in the same way, if responding at all...
Sameer's simplicity n unnecessary complications... though he himself is an uncomplicated person, unlike the other 2... n a bit confused as well( like me again..!)
Akash's guts... n ofcourse his almost bollywood style love story...! i'd like to live that kinda fairy tale love story, hopefully without the heartache part...! the courtship, the romance n all...
vaise bhi, what else can be expected out of this dreamy head, who also has an hopeless romantic heart..!

the movie has so many fab moments... dont know which is the best...!
the holiday in goa always makes me dream about one such holiday with my friends... did try workin it out once or twice, but without much success... but hope sustains life...!
so basically, watching the movie again just made me happy...!

i went to gurgaon today... on my way back saw the Centaur hotel next to the airport...
it got me thinking abt the recent sale of both the hotels in delhi n mumbai by the Govt. to a private entity... ofcourse the reason was the hotels were a loss-making unit...
i am assuming that the entity which bought the hotels is gonna convert into a huge profit margins for itself...
the question is, if the private entity can, then why cant the Govt...?
the Govt. should be run like a business... with the aim of making profit from the PSU's n other Govt. undertakings like the hotels, for the public... n further invest it for public welfare n the country...
i know the idea of making profit itself denies the purpose of a Govt. but it must be acknowledged that an organization cant function efficiently n effectively if the employees aren't given incentives... n no one can deny the fact that economic incentive is most powerful..
most of the presently ingrained corruption in the Govt. might also come to an end coz of the business-like setup... the decision-making process will be more efficient n more often than not, i hope right decisions will be made...

the problem that might arise... conversion to complete capitalism... i dont oppose capitalism, but a check is always required.. n then someone has to be concerned about the not-so-privileged society sections...

i wonder why hasnt the PM come up with this idea... though he'll probably never be able to get support from the Left...!

just a day...

wat a day... finally started with my 6th sem exams...! n wat a way to start.. Friday, the 13th...!!!
anyways.. so woke up around 10 am, spent some time flippin thru stuff... left me place around
1 pm... exam till 5 pm.. the good part.. it actually rained...! something i had been hoping for for the past 3 days...
came back home around 6:30 pm, read newspaper... read an editorial on the upcoming meet of the Foreign ministers of China, India n Russia... i think it was something overdue n now is the perfect time to take the next step... relations b/w India n China are improving and Russia n India have always supported each other throughout history... till 10th class i used to think USSR was bad... but after readin 10th history n about the world wars, i realised it was always the USA which played the part of the bad boy...! n since then i've always thought India shud maintain its ties with Russia.. it has always helped India in watever way n whenever possible... so kudos to Russia...!!
vaise bhi ab USA ka bahut ho gaya... its high time they moved over... those manipulators....!

anyways, so where was i... yeah around 9 pm i went out for dinner with my bro n the children of a family friend... as i always, i refused to decide where we shud go... so 1st we went to Pizza Hut near my place, but it had a long booking... n after considering a few other options, we headed towards the District Centre, Janak Puri.
As soon as we reached there, parking was a huge hassle.. the place was choked...! n taking a clue from this, we just gave the Pizza Hut here a fleeting shot... n ofcourse, it also had a huge waiting n its kinda small as well...
so we headed towards Bercos... n thankfully this is where we finally had the elusive dinner...!
ate chinese after a long time... it sure was a nice change...
had an ice-cream on also..!!!

i had a nice time today... the 3 ppl accompanying me were a real nice company... i kept laughing all the time...!
but the point is... even they said... "why the hell dont u talk much.. about any damn thing...!" they kept narrating incidents from their past... n they were hilarious...!
wat got me thinking was wat one of them said... how could i have nothing to talk about or share from my past...? how could my life be so monotonous...?
the reason is... i just dont seem to remember anything or most of the things...! agreed i am utterly lazy n hence a boring personality, but the going hasnt been that bad either... i just dont rememebr stuff... thats all !
but that does sound strange to me... coz i think the small things in life matter alot.. at times even more than the big events... so how can i not remember the small tits-bits from my life...? i do find that surprising though... even if i try to recollect, i can barely come up with anything... ofcourse some stuff from school time(7th -10th stds) maybe...
i guess i was always caught up in my emotions that i missed out on most of the fun part... stupid sentimentalities of mine...!! n ofcourse nothing or no one in this world can outdo my laziness...

so the conclusion i reached by the end of the dinner was... i havent really done much in terms of activities or vellagiri in my past... n ofcourse i need to improve my observation power as well as my retension power BIG time...!

kaafi arbit stuff ho gaya aaj to...

had to happen...

finally it happened...n how... i wrote the first words n it rained...! guess it just had to happen...
after procrastinating for ages now, finally i am writing... it really has been long since i penned down anything... feels nice to be back in a familiar territory...
the only hindrance now... to come up with stuff to write about...!
anyways, ab jab shuru kiya hai, to kuch likheinge bhi...

a reason to start this blog... numerous complaints of me not speaking much n as someone said..." i was withdrawing myself into a shell"... so gonna make an attemp here to prove to myself that i can still talk n write...
also guess its kinda needed for me to be able to blabber about stuff, coz that might come in handy during the GD sessions... ;)
a decent start... more is gonnafollow later... exactly when, is still under consideration...!

hope

Flowers may have lost their scent,
things may be too many to resent,
life may seem to be loosing its shine,
with the slowly passing time,
nothing may make you happy,
you may prefer to be shabby,
your thoughts may become cloudy,
everything ending with only if that could be,
there may be so much to hear & say,
and all clolours may seem to possess shades of grey.

Even then you must not loose hope,
trying your best to cope,
as nothing's permanent but change,
low & high not being the only range,
life is a basket full of surprises,
presenting the journey with all its riches,
for the silence to be broken,
words may not always be spoken,
the time may not actually be ripe,
only those tears you should be able to wipe.