just confusion...?

I had been doing something for a considerably long time… and then it ended… I felt nothing for a while… then felt a bit dazed… things had been laid out in a certain manner for the immediate future… everything was settled and I had reached some sort of a calm state… but then the wind started blowing… a few ripples in the calm lake… still not much to be bothered about because the uncertainty factor was way too high… then the disturbances started getting stronger… and the confusion factor was on the rise… the major reason being I was not sure of what I really wanted… I wasn’t sure if I wanted to continue with what seemed to be a cosy confine or let the other side take over… whether I was good enough for what seemed to be logical at this point… or if more evaluation and serious thought needed to be applied… I couldn’t figure out which direction to proceed in…
But the way things were proceeding, before every stage I was sure the calm would return soon… of course, the opposite had to happen and hence the storm just kept getting stronger… and it finally culminated into me being in the midst of a sandstorm with things going completely hazy…
Now nothing is visible… not even my own hands… the head is in a state of total chaos… the heart doesn’t know what to wish for… everyone, whether asked for or not, seems to think it their right to provide me with advice, directly or indirectly… sadly none has been of any help till now…
I myself had been in doubt regarding the course of action to be taken… but the resistance to the path everyone thinks I will be taking, and the absurd reasoning behind the resistance just seems to urge me to go against the resistance… I still don’t have even the slightest clue of what’s going to happen next… but it has to be decided soon…